Every day this week I woke up thinking, "I can't believe I won't be going to work today." For a workaholic like myself, it has been a strange thing.
From working five days a week to zero, from spending forty-five hours a week commuting and at work - to none. Going from spending most of my waking hours during the week away from home to spending almost all my time at home. Getting nine hours a day back into my life is a huge thing....
And honestly, I thought these first few days would be really difficult to acclimate to this change.
But it hasn't been hard.
I scared myself a little bit during my last days at my job when I thought with some shock that I couldn't remember what being at home all the time felt like. I feared that I would go stir crazy, feel unhappy, be bored all the time, not know what to do with myself (Yes, my thought life is pretty dramatic. I know. =D), and basically wish for my "working life" back ASAP.
But I don't.
I thought taking a break from most of the films and tv-shows I had been watching would be incredibly difficult.
But I don't really miss them.
Instead, even in this first week, I have this great peacefulness and happiness. A stillness in my soul. And the only explanation I have is that - God's will done God's way will never lack God's supplies. He will never leave nor forsake His children in their times of need. He has us in the palm of His hand. He sustains us, even when we don't see it.
"Whatever is good for your soul; do that."
^^^ It comes back to this. ^^^
This Sabbatical, this is what my soul needs. I don't need my job. I don't need 45 hours a week away from my home. I don't need all those time-sucking films and tv-shows. I don't need anything that I allowed to become a distraction take away any more of my time from what is most important right now: coming closer to the Father than ever before, and searching out His will rather than my own.
Life is like - the struggle of climbing huge Mayan Ruin steps.
Yeah, its not the easiest thing in the world to disconnect from the laundry list of things the Lord asked me to, but He never tells us that our lives will be easy - but He gives us that blessed assurance that it will be worth it. Giving over complete control of our lives to Him, instead of seeking to have complete control on our own, isn't a piece of cake. Our flesh would rather live our lives according to our own plan.
But I can tell you right now - God is infinitely wiser than we are. Giving the wheel to Him is definitely the best decision ever. He is to be our pilot, and we are to take a back seat. It is indeed difficult for those of us who like to be "in control", but do we want Easy or Worth It?
It takes courage to follow the Lord's prompting in your life, especially when He is asking for you to make sacrifices in certain areas. But let me encourage you to boldly follow the Lord's leading, even when it hurts. He tests our resolve, and our faith, in times like these.
"Will you follow Me now? How much are you willing to sacrifice for Me? - I gave my all for you."
In the end, if you trust Him to guide you, if you Wait Upon the Lord, He will - renew your strength; you will soar on wings like eagles; you will run and not grow weary; you will walk and not faint.
And that's a promise that is Worth It.